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(blog will still be here cos I can't bear to delete it, links will be here too :D)
Concert (28th November 08) was awesome + uuber fun :D
Screwed up some songs but nevermind :D
Camwhored a whole lotz upload another day :D
I love love love love love love love love love AHSGE :D!
500th post :D
Great way to end this online diary :D
I will probably be using livejournal next time :D
Smile be happy :D
Thursday, November 27, 2008 | 11:39 PM
HELLO LOVE! XD
I did somethang uuber cool to my shoez more pics after concert :D
OMG I AM SO HAPPY NOW AHHAHAHAHAHA I FOUND MY PHONE WHICH HAS BEEN MISSING SINCE TODAY MORNING XD OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGGGG I AM GOING TO CRY! XDDDDDDDDDD
Today was fun :D
People at Yamaha are very nice + friendly :D
They taught me how to change my strings :D
They helped me trim the strings + wipe my guitar :D
They even wished me goodluck for the concert :D
Maybe I'll have a Yamaha stint after my O levels :D
I will teach people to change strings among other things :D
I know my smiley faces are annoying you :D
I got crazy pwned at bowling today :D
I almost got a spare :D
The damn pin wobbled but didn't fall
I almost got starved to death today :D
I think Celeste and Claire and I probably have abs from laughing so much at Macs :D
Macs lunch was fun :D
Sarah has a darn cool guitar case :D
My eyes sting from counting the guitar fund :D
I want to sleep soon :D
I don't want to have eyebags tmr :D
I am looking forward to tmr :D
I think I'm a pervert for actually looking forward to tmr :D
We will be waddling/shuffling around like a penguinduck in painful court shoez :D
We will be wearing tightfitting waistpinching highwaisted shapeless itchy black pantz that are pretty
We will be parading around in damn grandmahy beige shirts with revolting puffy sleeves :D
We will have fugly maroon flowers and Indianish scarves on us :D
We will probably look like a hybrid of pimps + grandparents + clowns + flabbypeople + penguins + ducks + toplesspeople + ethnicpeople + weirdos :D
Oh you don't want to know :D
But you will tmr :D
Laugh and die :D
OH YEAH AND FUGLY CHEENA MAKEUP :D
"I hate crossing my legs, I hate swaying, I hate shouting "harmony", but I still love guitar. A lot."
- Chin da Retard's display name :D
AHSGE FTW:D
We will rockz tmr :D
(even if the concert turns out to be a total and utter flop)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 | 8:03 PM
Don't let it be love
tagged by Genevieve mutha XD
RULES:
1. Put your Music Player/Handphone/MP3/etc. on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after that song name.
5. Put this on your blog :D.
If someone says"Is this okay?" You say?
Miracle - Paramore
(ROFLZ MAYBE CUZ ITZ A MIRACLE SOMEONE ACTUALLY TRUSTS MY SANITY ENOUGH TO ASK FOR MY OPINION XDDDDDD)
How would you describe yourself?
Do you know what I'm seeing - Panic! at the disco
(Er mabbe it'z coz I'm a little eccentric at times XD)
What do you like in a boy?
All I need is you - The Click Five
(I want him to be there for me? ._______. abcdefg don't know la!)
How do you feel today?
Sway - Pussycat dolls
(HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH PERHAPS WE PLAYED SWAY SO MANY TIMES I FEEL LIKE SWAYING!!!! OR TOO MUCH SWAYING LIKE SPRIGHTLY PALM TREES TO MEZZA LUNA XD)
Your life's purpose?
Dance floor anthem - Good Charlotte
(I don't wna be in love? Or mabbe I wna dance. :D)
What is your motto?
Almost here - delta goodrem
(No link. But it'z an aweszome emo duet XD)
What do your friends think of you?
Potential suicide - Allister
(ROFL. I DRIVE PEOPLE TO THEIR GRAVES XD)
What do you think of your parents?
Hero - Mariah Carey
(Sez it all :D)
What do you think about very often?
Better than me - Hinder
(Kiasuism? :O Or maybe... )
What is 2+2?
Desperado - The eagles
(UUUUUUUBER NO LINKZ. Ok maybe cos desperado is about a gambling addict? Argh I hatez numberz ): )
What do you think of your best friend?
Candyman - christina aguilera
(NO LINK AGAIN. NEXT!!!!!!!!!)
What do you think of the person you like?
Luckiest loser - Bowling for soup
(Loser happens to be a pet phrase of mine XD)
What is your life story?
Shadow of the day - Linkin Park
(Ouhkay I know Chng's gna kill me cos it'z LINKINg PARK but really la this song is nice. XD Also quite no link. Maybe the sun will set for me one day!!!!!! XD)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
A beautiful mess - Jason Mraz
('You’ve got the best of both worlds You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man then lift him back up again' Oh yeah I would like that XD)
What do you think of when you see the person you like?
My paper heart - The All American rejects
(Don't you dare play with me cuz I gotta bleedin' paper heart!!!!!!!!!!! XD)
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Thunder - Boys like girls
(OOOH NICE XD Imagine dancing to that! XD)
What will they play at your funeral?
High school never ends - Bowling for soup
(So not proper la. OMG WHAT IF I DIE BEFORE HIGH SCHOOL ENDZ. ZOMGZZZ!!! D: D: +hugs wood+)
What is your hobby/interest?
I'm with you - Avril lavinge
(sooper no link. But it'z a nice song :D)
What is your biggest fear?
With love - Hilary duff
(ROFLZ 1AVANDE DANCING XD)
What is your biggest secret?
Right here waiting - Richard Marx
(I'm secretly waiting for someone right over there you know.)
What do you think of your friends?
I've got you - McFly
(YAY TOTALLY. :D AWESZOMEEEEEEEEEEZ)
The title of your post shall be:
Don't let it be love - Bowling for soup
(Now you know.)
I am happy today :D
Today was fun :D
I didn't want to post but gem mother asked me to do the quiz :D
Will mass spam pictures after concert XD
I did somethang coolz to my shoez XD XD
I need to stop typing stupidly. :D...
Shiz I feel so !#$&^#$%^&%^$ ):
Concert in 4 days.
Maybe I'll switch to livejournal. I quite fancy the locked posts thingymajiggie.
...
...
RULES:
1. Put your Music Player/Handphone/MP3/etc. on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after that song name.
5. Put this on your blog :D.
If someone says"Is this okay?" You say?
Miracle - Paramore
(ROFLZ MAYBE CUZ ITZ A MIRACLE SOMEONE ACTUALLY TRUSTS MY SANITY ENOUGH TO ASK FOR MY OPINION XDDDDDD)
How would you describe yourself?
Do you know what I'm seeing - Panic! at the disco
(Er mabbe it'z coz I'm a little eccentric at times XD)
What do you like in a boy?
All I need is you - The Click Five
(I want him to be there for me? ._______. abcdefg don't know la!)
How do you feel today?
Sway - Pussycat dolls
(HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH PERHAPS WE PLAYED SWAY SO MANY TIMES I FEEL LIKE SWAYING!!!! OR TOO MUCH SWAYING LIKE SPRIGHTLY PALM TREES TO MEZZA LUNA XD)
Your life's purpose?
Dance floor anthem - Good Charlotte
(I don't wna be in love? Or mabbe I wna dance. :D)
What is your motto?
Almost here - delta goodrem
(No link. But it'z an aweszome emo duet XD)
What do your friends think of you?
Potential suicide - Allister
(ROFL. I DRIVE PEOPLE TO THEIR GRAVES XD)
What do you think of your parents?
Hero - Mariah Carey
(Sez it all :D)
What do you think about very often?
Better than me - Hinder
(Kiasuism? :O Or maybe... )
What is 2+2?
Desperado - The eagles
(UUUUUUUBER NO LINKZ. Ok maybe cos desperado is about a gambling addict? Argh I hatez numberz ): )
What do you think of your best friend?
Candyman - christina aguilera
(NO LINK AGAIN. NEXT!!!!!!!!!)
What do you think of the person you like?
Luckiest loser - Bowling for soup
(Loser happens to be a pet phrase of mine XD)
What is your life story?
Shadow of the day - Linkin Park
(Ouhkay I know Chng's gna kill me cos it'z LINKINg PARK but really la this song is nice. XD Also quite no link. Maybe the sun will set for me one day!!!!!! XD)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
A beautiful mess - Jason Mraz
('You’ve got the best of both worlds You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man then lift him back up again' Oh yeah I would like that XD)
What do you think of when you see the person you like?
My paper heart - The All American rejects
(Don't you dare play with me cuz I gotta bleedin' paper heart!!!!!!!!!!! XD)
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Thunder - Boys like girls
(OOOH NICE XD Imagine dancing to that! XD)
What will they play at your funeral?
High school never ends - Bowling for soup
(So not proper la. OMG WHAT IF I DIE BEFORE HIGH SCHOOL ENDZ. ZOMGZZZ!!! D: D: +hugs wood+)
What is your hobby/interest?
I'm with you - Avril lavinge
(sooper no link. But it'z a nice song :D)
What is your biggest fear?
With love - Hilary duff
(ROFLZ 1AVANDE DANCING XD)
What is your biggest secret?
Right here waiting - Richard Marx
(I'm secretly waiting for someone right over there you know.)
What do you think of your friends?
I've got you - McFly
(YAY TOTALLY. :D AWESZOMEEEEEEEEEEZ)
The title of your post shall be:
Don't let it be love - Bowling for soup
(Now you know.)
I am happy today :D
Today was fun :D
I didn't want to post but gem mother asked me to do the quiz :D
Will mass spam pictures after concert XD
I did somethang coolz to my shoez XD XD
I need to stop typing stupidly. :D
Monday, November 24, 2008 | 10:38 PM
I am resisting the urge to swear.
No one's going to get you through this but yourself.
No one's going to know you any better than yourself.
You gotta be strong for yourself.
Wish you'd go feed yourself to a ravenous mountain lion. Wish I never knew. Wish none of this crap happened. Wish I
+gives finger+
so sue me.
Damn you Liying for being so ________.
No one's going to know you any better than yourself.
You gotta be strong for yourself.
Wish you'd go feed yourself to a ravenous mountain lion. Wish I never knew. Wish none of this crap happened. Wish I
+gives finger+
so sue me.
Damn you Liying for being so ________.
Damn you, too.
If this is pride then I must be too proud for my own good.
Everything was perfectly fine and dandy until
I feel stalked I feel like I have my every step dogged it haunts me and hunts me and
Shiz I feel so !#$&^#$%^&%^$ ):
I feel like I'm wasting away even though everyday's fully packed and I have fun and shiz.
Oh snap out of it. Get over it.
Get out there and make the world a better place :D
Concert in 4 days.
Maybe I'll switch to livejournal. I quite fancy the locked posts thingymajiggie.
A need to stand up and scream,
to let down all thoughts and let it all out,
to have a shoulder to cry on,
to have a hand to reach out for,
to
have a purpose to live.
Sunday, November 23, 2008 | 1:43 AM
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Thursday, November 20, 2008 | 8:41 PM
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Sooperly dooperly tired recently but it'z been pretty fun :D
Running in the rain, screwing up a handphone, feeding mosquitoes, battling ants, stomping on mosquitoes, hiding from ants, playing mulata x890139274192837412987412, playing mezza luna x89731489792374839828900202020!!!!! (THANK YOU YANNIs AND CHARMAINE), playing Lambada (complete with 34178341 repeatz and high-pitched shouting at the end) x8721421990929384189834029, playing sway x9821074713493711477, + random other guitar songs x90721341094709974273zillion times, running down the changcheng, flashing people, P-ing/Q-ing/R-ing, meeting random poks for dinner, playing badminton, going running, reading, reading, reading, reading manga (thank you manday.__.), going out with random aunties to buy textbooks, drooling over (OMGGGGGGGGZXZX!!) topless hotz guys with (ZOMGZZZZZZ) washboard abs in the (OMGGGGGGGGG) shower, forming alliances with another fellow sex maniac, going on a failure of a shopping trip, running from shawn, carrying stands, carrying guitars, losing picks, finding picks, screwing up songs, squishing kiwis, having early morning breakfast at Mac donald's, drinking coffee, spilling coffee, seed picking, smelling like insect repellent/hospital wards, playing lullabys xD, courtshoe shopping, having my sneakers pulled off, untying shoelaces, arm wrestling, playing with food, stealing food, playing at the swing, crapping x91234712344242172390194818918498773838998!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, trying to find shades that won't make me look weird, playing with Gatsby, calling people poks/porks/lard/blubber/flab, being called random nicknames, fighting with Chinz, messing people's hair XD, getting my hair messed, getting my elastic bands/clipz stolen, throwing hot air at people, mistreating the footstool/stand whatever, dropping scores, playing monkey with Mambo, mistreating Mambo, eating tons of fast food, laughing at _________'s facial :D, getting owned at Messenger games, getting owned at bowling D:, laughing a lot at random times, daydreaming a lot, dropping picks a lot, shaking very random stuff out of a guitar, freaking out, freaking in, being a geek, cursing people ectz XD
I'm too lazyyyyyyy to list out the zillion others :D
concert in 8 days! :OOOOO!!!!
warning: wordy meaningless ramble coming up.
Funny how time changes things so much. Funny how time flies so fast. Funny how we always look back and go, "Now, where did all that time go to?"
Two years ago I got my PSLE score. Now, two years later, I watch my younger sibling do the same and I wonder how two years - twenty four months, seven hundred and thirty days, seventeen thousand five hundred and twenty hours, a million and fifty one thousand and two hundred minutes - managed to pass so fast. Secondary one felt like a mere day ago. To think that I'm already concluding my episode of lower secondary life. I feel so old. D;
As I've often said I never once dreamt I'd be here. Right here right now with fourteen years and ten months of memories and experiences draped across my shoulders. There are so, so many things I should have done, but there's even more I shouldn't have.
Sometimes it's just weird. I think the concept of time isn't something the average human mind can fully grasp, I think it's one of those mysteries of life that even science cannot provide a satisfactory answer to.
Before I know it I'll be graduating. I'll be one of those alumnis who visit the compounds every now and then. I'll be walking the same halls the same corridors passing the same classrooms as a different person with a different school a different way of life a different group of friends a different uniform, and I probably won't recognise anything anymore. I'll be going out to work. I'll be getting my first ever paycheck and maybe I won't even remember the school anymore. I'll be getting married (ok this may not come to pass but whatever lets assume it does) I'll be having children, my children will be having grandchildren and then one day I'll leave. Leave everything behind and head for someplace I'll never know in this lifetime.
I think it's just plain scary. There one moment and gone the next. Youthful one day and ancient the next.
I never really liked mystery novels wreathed in suspense. I don't like how uncertainty clouds your vision so you can only see the ground you're standing on and how far you've gone, but nothing more. A shadowy, unpredictable future. You could take a step forward and plunge off the edge of a cliff into the unknown. Then again I suppose living knowing what'll happen to you and how you'll be like later on will take the fun out of everything.
But sometimes it's just so tiring being kept on tenterhooks all the time....
Running in the rain, screwing up a handphone, feeding mosquitoes, battling ants, stomping on mosquitoes, hiding from ants, playing mulata x890139274192837412987412, playing mezza luna x89731489792374839828900202020!!!!! (THANK YOU YANNIs AND CHARMAINE), playing Lambada (complete with 34178341 repeatz and high-pitched shouting at the end) x8721421990929384189834029, playing sway x9821074713493711477, + random other guitar songs x90721341094709974273zillion times, running down the changcheng, flashing people, P-ing/Q-ing/R-ing, meeting random poks for dinner, playing badminton, going running, reading, reading, reading, reading manga (thank you manday.__.), going out with random aunties to buy textbooks, drooling over (OMGGGGGGGGZXZX!!) topless hotz guys with (ZOMGZZZZZZ) washboard abs in the (OMGGGGGGGGG) shower, forming alliances with another fellow sex maniac, going on a failure of a shopping trip, running from shawn, carrying stands, carrying guitars, losing picks, finding picks, screwing up songs, squishing kiwis, having early morning breakfast at Mac donald's, drinking coffee, spilling coffee, seed picking, smelling like insect repellent/hospital wards, playing lullabys xD, courtshoe shopping, having my sneakers pulled off, untying shoelaces, arm wrestling, playing with food, stealing food, playing at the swing, crapping x91234712344242172390194818918498773838998!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, trying to find shades that won't make me look weird, playing with Gatsby, calling people poks/porks/lard/blubber/flab, being called random nicknames, fighting with Chinz, messing people's hair XD, getting my hair messed, getting my elastic bands/clipz stolen, throwing hot air at people, mistreating the footstool/stand whatever, dropping scores, playing monkey with Mambo, mistreating Mambo, eating tons of fast food, laughing at _________'s facial :D, getting owned at Messenger games, getting owned at bowling D:, laughing a lot at random times, daydreaming a lot, dropping picks a lot, shaking very random stuff out of a guitar, freaking out, freaking in, being a geek, cursing people ectz XD
I'm too lazyyyyyyy to list out the zillion others :D
concert in 8 days! :OOOOO!!!!
warning: wordy meaningless ramble coming up.
Funny how time changes things so much. Funny how time flies so fast. Funny how we always look back and go, "Now, where did all that time go to?"
Two years ago I got my PSLE score. Now, two years later, I watch my younger sibling do the same and I wonder how two years - twenty four months, seven hundred and thirty days, seventeen thousand five hundred and twenty hours, a million and fifty one thousand and two hundred minutes - managed to pass so fast. Secondary one felt like a mere day ago. To think that I'm already concluding my episode of lower secondary life. I feel so old. D;
As I've often said I never once dreamt I'd be here. Right here right now with fourteen years and ten months of memories and experiences draped across my shoulders. There are so, so many things I should have done, but there's even more I shouldn't have.
Sometimes it's just weird. I think the concept of time isn't something the average human mind can fully grasp, I think it's one of those mysteries of life that even science cannot provide a satisfactory answer to.
Before I know it I'll be graduating. I'll be one of those alumnis who visit the compounds every now and then. I'll be walking the same halls the same corridors passing the same classrooms as a different person with a different school a different way of life a different group of friends a different uniform, and I probably won't recognise anything anymore. I'll be going out to work. I'll be getting my first ever paycheck and maybe I won't even remember the school anymore. I'll be getting married (ok this may not come to pass but whatever lets assume it does) I'll be having children, my children will be having grandchildren and then one day I'll leave. Leave everything behind and head for someplace I'll never know in this lifetime.
I think it's just plain scary. There one moment and gone the next. Youthful one day and ancient the next.
I never really liked mystery novels wreathed in suspense. I don't like how uncertainty clouds your vision so you can only see the ground you're standing on and how far you've gone, but nothing more. A shadowy, unpredictable future. You could take a step forward and plunge off the edge of a cliff into the unknown. Then again I suppose living knowing what'll happen to you and how you'll be like later on will take the fun out of everything.
But sometimes it's just so tiring being kept on tenterhooks all the time.
Sunday, November 16, 2008 | 2:02 AM
i think
people out there are going through such awful things. How can I still be like this?
I'm selfish, I'm ashamed of myself.
But what will I do?
I want a simple life with family with friends with you....
I'm selfish, I'm ashamed of myself.
But what will I do?
I want a simple life with family with friends with you.