its the loss of my high that i once had.
im not emo. dont you freaking dare call me emo. and im so damn freaking lame that im cool. accept it.
ahhhhhh. time is running in circles inside my head. im getting dizzzzy. im chasing you around and around in so many memories, all coming back in fragmentssssss. im stumbling upon buried feelingsss.
oh, get a grip, meow! its time to stand up and fight back. its time to freaking let go already. this childhood isnt going to last forever.
oh no no no, and im going to tell myself that im strong (well i am) and strong cats dont wait for time. strong cats fight for what they want. (and oh my, i think im in a fight with my egos, i think im in a fight with sanity.)
oh, how many damned people have i influenced? ohhh, i see people talking like me. oh no, what have i done?
oh no, what has happened to my math? oh nooooo, i think i failed math! oh myyyy. i think i shall have to drag up my math results. oh nooooooooo. i shall have to self-improooooove. oh myyyyyy.
ohhhhh, where are the days when people said that i could let go soooo easilllly? that no person could ever bring me dooooooown?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. so many memorieeeeees. coming back in freakiiiing biits and piecesssss. soo mannny shattered dreaaaaaaamsssss. buried under all those false assurancessssss. ahhhh. go back! go back doooooown! i dont waaant youu heeeeereeeeee. baack inntooooo the daaaark dark corrrrnerrrrs of my miiiiind! begone! i dont need you heereeee! shoooooo! SHOOOO!
meow dosent need you to walk on. 'cause meow's strong and she knows it and you do too. and 'till the day meow meet her special one, meow shall walk on confidently down this stupid winding path. she shall one day replace those broken dreams, and you'll be just a stupid, faded rainbow. and all those damn wilted flowers of this past shall one day lie in the dust. yes, meow shall do it, 'cause she can. ((: