"People learn to struggle, to fight against the pain in life."
"But what for? In the long run, what for?" the monk demanded. "Can't you understand that we all die in the end, wether it is at seven or seventy? People live their whole lives pretending they won't die, taking everything as seriously as if they will live forever. Don't you realize that even if you help a little now, or manage to change things to a small extent, none of this will last?"
"It dosen't have to last!" Dawan cried. "As long as there's some improvement in things, even if it's only for a while, it's a worthwhile effort."
"So many have tried to improve things, child, but..."
"But i still want to try!" Dawan interrupted earnestly, her eyes gleaming. "Even if you've tried, and failed, even if thousands of thousands beforeyou have tried and failed, i want my chance too!"
i remember having many dreams last night, all of them ending in tragedy.
i do suppose that i don't know how to open up, don't know how to lighten up.
perhaps i'll try.
perhaps i still want my chance.
this time it's only against me.