stop feeling sorry for yourself you stupid loser )x
can't get math right though i've spent forever on it and everyone seems to be like just going aha i get it and then they still manage to do well but gosh it just isn't the same case for me.
& it's like i really try to study & really try to pay attention & whatnot yet i still can't score for the damn tests but then people are like (seemingly) not really studying like just a read through & then topping scores & oh whatever.
i'm not jealous; i'm just demoralized.
perhaps i should forget about triple science.
& even getting into a JC.
it's not just one pitfall, my dear.
perhaps this was one too many.
how should i survive the coming years?
assuming i survive this.
what's future in this society without way above average results?
i don't want to care about anything anymore 'cos most of the time i only get sadness in return. ):
don't you get it?
less expectations = less unhappiness