yay we conquered the Mountain of freaking Cotton D;

did the handover presents today +gets all secretive+
nonnnnnononono no spoilers:D

i think my room's still cottonized damnit._.
& it's in a freeeeeeeaking wreckD:

met day & mich in the aftrnoon then went to yamaha to check out the guitar lesson details:D
yay i think i'm enrolling although i don't have enough time._.
had lunch at KFC.
freaking spaz okay D;
koped food & did spaz stuff but we're not in uniform so ladedah.
didn't have time to tie my hair so i looked super stupid ;-;
damn people kept suaning me about my hair gahD:
i shall not talk about bad stuff i.e. my bad hair experienceDx
i hate hate hate haircuts gahhh

got M&M's and +censored+ :D
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:D

started on pressies._.
zomg zomg zomg halfway through day & i were like breaking down due to +censored+ alr;D
AHAHHHAHAHA:D
lolumfunny(:
took an ice cream break & went back to +censored+
ah no fun, having to censor everything ):

remember being rly spaz + camwhorishy + zihighing like @!#$ but
okay i don't remember anything else.
& my mind currently feels like it's full of bits of fluff and nothing else.
ouch.

aaaaaaaaaaaah i think i'm crashing damnit._.
think i got too highD:

okay my head is throbbing & i don't fricking want to go to school tmr $%$#@.

so i sortof never want to go to school anymore but whatever._.

bye bye the Anglican High of '07 ):

picture credit Michelle.
this picture like totally captures everything.
totally.

i'm so sick of everything now ):
i mean i get super high but then i know that sometime later i'll crash-land
and no that isn't a pretty sight.
screw everything D:

i don't like this thing anymore ):

when i'm high i'm beyond high
but when i'm low i'm beyond low

what am i supposed to do now:/

getting strung out on coffee then studying like there's no tmr dosen't just go down with me._.
i hate studying & not seeing any improvement at all.
sometimes i think my intelligence is half that of the others in ahs ):

& i don't have a choice if i don't want to let anyone down.

i'm not okay damnit.

maybe i am.

oh gah i don't know.

i don't want to exist damnit._.

if this is existence then _______________________________________.

okay there are the great times but ouch, they're nothing compared to the down.

sometimes i wish i hadn't done well enough in the PSLE to get into anglican although i would be missing out on lots of friends + laughter + great great memories + lots of other stuff.

but then maybe i'll be this ahlian-ish twit who just knows how to put on excessive makeup and look lian and perhaps act lian and oh maybe be a disgrace to myself.

but sometimes that's better than having to worry about your studies 24/7 and try to survive in this cut-throat society.

ignorance is bliss, dearie.

without the grades you get nowhere.
but what's the use if you kill yourself getting those grades.

my heart feels like the mess it is.
i think i'm the wreck i would always be.

get over it you loser.
it's been so long & it'll never come back so get over it.
once time passes nothing will ever bring it back so get over it.
get.
over.
it.



























okay.
crash bang boom.

i'll be fine:D

idk but yar PMS PMS:D

nah i won't die yet no need to call in the st johns.

going to sleep early & wake up super early tmr to study math 'cos i can never study during weekends dangitD:

I SHALL RIP FROM MANDAY + MICH WHEN THEY POST:D

i am sunny.
no longer meow.
HAH:D ...