when you feel like giving up on everything. even what you thought you lived for.
idk why i feel like this but i do know that emotions are ruthless.
feelings are unreasonable.
can't run from them. can't hide from them.
a false move and they surge over you like demons. they stab at you with their pitchforks and leave you lying in your own pool of blood. they wrench out all the unhappiness you've entombed in the core of your soul and lay them out before you like victims of a massacre. until all you can see is grey and all you can hear is sorrow. until you feel like hope ditched you and fled with it's tail between it's legs. and happiness followed suit with all the other good feelings.
numbness would have been an easier option.
today your heart aches with every beat so much so that you wish it'd not beat any longer.
today you spent in the company of emotions you wish never existed. emotions you've been shying away from since your first memory. today they felt you over with their clammy hands and murdered your cheeriness.
until nothing seems to brighten your day.