i look so freaking different! D;
perhaps one day you'll see:DD
meh.
i officially hate mondays.
schooling mondays :/
mondays suck! ):
i've come to dread chinese & english lessons with a ferocious loathing.
especially double periods of the above mentioned.
omg, language lessons bloody suck okay D:
so demoralizing ):
my english is dropping & my chinese just can't go up )x
meh.
i hate chinese + english.
to think that they're most crucial D:
need to go back to school on the last week of the holidays ;-;
& it's full day o_o
screw AH Dx
we stress ourselves to breaking point before the mid years then they don't let us have a proper holiday ):
& tanlaoshi has officially made me apprehensive of jc life ):
i can't even cope as well as i want to with sec 2 work damnit.
demoralized ):
& the worst thing is that my notes aren't complete yet & the exams are so so so so so unbeliveably close.
the stress is almost a physical feeling ):
should have gone to a neighbourhood school.
then can top easily ):
+unhappy+
8 more days.
8 more bloody days of incessant pressure then it's over.
woosh.
then i'll be free to be as frivolous/bimbo/zihigh/flighty as i want.
if i make it through these 8 days alive._.
can't take this much more ): i am such a failure, damnit.
how pathetic can i get.
i can never meet my own damn standards.
like, what's wrong with me.
living on the brink of tears.
cry a river, build a bridge across it then bloody move on with life.
screwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
AFTER the freaking exams:
i can be as ________________ as i want & no one can care.
think of having fun.
think of class outings.
think of seeing all the '06 people again.
think of the shopping trips.
think of the beach.
think of the guitar & organ.
think of mastering the bloody flamenco thing movement thing whatever it is.
think of doing lotsa craft.
think of painting.
think of the guitar handover.
think of waking up late.
think of going to sleep really late.
think of being able to read the whole day through.
think of a holiday job experience.
think of going to the movies.
think of being able to create.
think of taking photos.
think of the damn freedom.
'if you're going through hell, keep going'
-Winston Churchill
i can do it.
go me.
study hard & kick ass, to use one of Queenie's favourite phrases.
omg, smile you twit!
S M I L E.
there are always flowers for those who want to see.
(hey mich, you can quote this! +smiles+)
:D
back up on my feet, mouhahahahah!:D